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Jan. 19th, 2007 @ 02:27 pm (no subject)
I have come to the conclusion that having a Livejournal when there is no drama in your life is completely useless. I no longer have stable internet access and well my lifes just going great. So this is my last post on this shit EVA. Hope the drama continues, but without me. I've had my fucking fill. Peace bitches!
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Jan. 21st, 2006 @ 10:10 am (no subject)
Hey, I'm sorry but my cell phone got taken away and now the fucking phone is blocked from calling california again... This isn't me being my old self and tossing you aside, I'm really trying to contact you but my mom doesn't want me to.. Which makes it hard.. I still don't know where my cell phone is, I'm working really hard to find it. Please believe that I'm not trying to let you go or make you mad or any of that.. I'm still trying to contact you and the only way I have left right now is through computer.. I have to go I'm sorry I'll try and contact you tonight

Love you lots and lots

Keta
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Dec. 17th, 2005 @ 08:40 pm Attention
As of Friday til Wednesday January 3rd, Patrick/Keta/Whatever else you call the Fluff, will not be able to access the internet due to his move.
Saturday the 24th, he will be flying to Colorado Springs and only then will he have an oppertunity to access the internet to update and such. From the 28th to the 1st, however, he might be staying with me and once again be without access.


tori
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Dec. 12th, 2005 @ 11:32 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Tetris Cover - Powerglove
Eh. This entire moving thing is finally pulling together, we'll be in the new house by thursday. Which means we still have to unpack all the shit we have, and clean up the condo before we're completely done. I reckon it'll take maybe another month or so, but it'll be a lot less rushed. Going back to Colorado in a few weeks, where I'll record the bass tracks for this demo. If you want one leave a comment or something and I'll get one to you. Other than that I've been realizing all the differences in the cultures around here. People are very closed minded, especially when it comes to music. If you slap something on the player that they don't like they bitch, and bitch, and bitch until its something like trance or neo-classical metal. People around here think that trance will outlast all different types of music, even jazz, blues, and classical which have survived longer than most people can even fathom around here. Also, money. I talked to one guy who's in a band and plays around a little bit, and we started to talking about music, I told him that music has been my life since I was little, and that as long as I have a stage to play on, a crowd to appease, and bandmates to play with I'd be happy. He told me to get the fuck out of America, laughed, and told me that life was about money. Thats the reason why he won't continue with his band, because he wants to have yachts and huge house(s) and other useless, mindless indulgences. He thinks I'm the dumbest person in the world because I'd rather work at a gas station and have very few nice things rather than have millions of fake mooch friends and a barrage of fancy shit. For me, its always been about enjoying your life, not enjoying what material goods you have. Because if you think about it, all of it will pass. You'll eventually have to let it all go. But whatever, I'm going back to Colorado in a few weeks. It makes me happy, I'll get to see my old friends, my band, and go to a new years party. But the thing that makes me the most happy is I'll see Toori when I'm out there. Its pretty cool shit. It snowed here, and I played in the snow for hours. It was, very awesome. And I also figured out why its so hard to walk through snow! Well its actually stating the obvious but whatever. Its just walking through water, frozen water, which makes it even harder to go through. I'm such a motherfucking genius. Mwaha. Well I don't have much more to say, so. Later. Oh P.S. check out this band called powerglove, they do crazy metal covers of videogame music. Its pretty sick, I'm listening to the Tetris one right now.
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Nov. 15th, 2005 @ 05:36 pm Vous ne pouvez pas parler français !
Current Mood: Alésé
Current Music: Démon de la chute - Le Opeth
Ma bande est forte, nous ne mourra jamais, partout où je suis. Kapu, vous êtes le seul qui peut lire ceci, ainsi ce qui est vers le haut d'ami ! Chacun est autrement sourd-muet, ils ne peut pas comprendre ceci. Ha. Je dois faire crepes pour la classe française. Crepes sont si bons ! Mais ouais. Quoi qu'il en soit. Voir le ya autour, je dirai des choses moyennes derrière votre dos en français si je pas !
Au revoir!
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Nov. 13th, 2005 @ 10:08 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: Fur Elise - Beethoven
So this journal isn't meant to be a place to drop pat an anonymous hate comment. This is a place for love, peace, and having the balls to have your opinion on what I say, and say it with your own fucking voice. Whoevers leaving these messages is a coward and a pussy for not being able to fess up and let me either take their advice, or rip them a new one. "Your bullshit makes me laugh, ha ha ha." Yours does! What isn't more bullshit than leaving an anonymous comment talking shit. Not many things, except the mounds of bullshit I seem to wade through each day that I also seem to create for myself. So whoever you are, fuck you, show your face, or get the fuck out of my journal.

In other news, I can't wait to go back to Colorado, we should be playing a new years show and I'm still recording some bass tracks for RECONDITE. The only band I want to be in. A chance to see my brothers again, a chance to have yet another new years party with them. I went to boston today, saw a guy reinact the entire star wars trilogy in roughly 50 minutes. By himself. No Props. No Costumes. And it was great! I loved it. Very genius. And in other news than that, not much is happening. Quitting smoking didn't work, and neither does my internet. Schools going good, the class I'm scoring highest in is French, which is wierd because I still can't speak it that well. But I can say Bonjour ma petite chien! (Hello my little dog!) And Ques que cest le lavabo? (Where is the sink?). So go me I guess. Um, yeah. Well thats it. And if I get a little whoop de doo bullshit anonymous comment to this entry I'll laugh, because someone just doesn't get that when you're trying to hurt someone, you're just PISSING THEM OFF.
Peace
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Nov. 1st, 2005 @ 04:18 pm (no subject)
Quit the band. Don't want another one
Feel stupid for not being able to stay up longer
Need to find a way to stay awake for days at a time
Getting cranky because I haven't had a cigarette in a while, but quitting will be good
Slightly slipping in school
Want to be elsewhere
Same ol same ol
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Oct. 30th, 2005 @ 05:32 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: Eh
Current Music: Demon of the Fall - Opeth
Haloween. I'm a beatnik. I have an argyle sweater, one of those funky hats, bongo drums and a stylin' soul patch, as if to say "Screw you late 50's/early 60's Society! I'm going to smoke cigarettes and make poetry with drums in the backround." Dunno what I'm doing for haloween yet, don't really care. I'm going to try and stay home but will probably get dragged away by someone. Besides that I've been going to school, getting decent grades and yeah. Boring. Apparently I'm in a band HERE now that sucks, and I never go to practice because all they do is smoke and play out of key and time. They all refuse to acknowledge that hey! There might just be something to playing with the drums, or at least about at the same speed. But whatever. I've rediscovered the joys of cuddling, spending hours talking about anything, and have begun to feel the flame of love grow stronger. I've met up with old friends, fallen back into the old "click" and whatnot. Yes I quit the guild. No biggie. All in all.. I'd say life is alright, even if I want to be in California or at least Colorado.-sighs- But what can I do besides wait, and save up for tickets for spring break. I have to study the Arc De Triumph right now. So bye.
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Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 10:23 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: DETH METAL
Current Music: Stripped, Raped and Strangled
They think they know who I am
All they know is I love to kill
Face down, dead on the ground
Find me before another is found

I come alive in the darkness
Left murdered and nameless
Dead, unburied, and rotten
Half eaten by insects

She was so beautiful
I HAD TO KILL HER!

Tied her up
And taped her mouth shut
Couldn't scream
Raped violently
Rope tight, around her throat
Her body twitches
As she chokes

Strangulation caused her death
Just like all the others
Raped before and after death
Stripped, raped, tortured

They're all dead, they're all dead
They're all dead, by strangulation

I come alive in the darkness
Left murdered and nameless
Dead, unburied, and rotten
Half eaten by insects

It felt so good to kill

I took their lives away
Seven dead, lying rotten
Unburied victims
Their naked bodies putrefy

Strangulation caused her death
Just like all the others
Raped before and after death
Stripped, raped, tortured

They're all dead, They're all dead
They're all dead, by strangulation

I come alive in the darkness
Left murdered and nameless
Dead, unburied, and rotten
Half eaten by insects

They think they know who I am
All they know is I love the kill
Face down, dead on the ground
Find me before another is found




Cannibal Corpse bitches
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Oct. 13th, 2005 @ 08:28 am (no subject)
Well.. A lot has changed. I'm in Massachussetts now, have been for about a week. Things are so much slower around here I can actually breathe. I realized the other day I had no homework, no people to meet.. No practice to go to. I had nothing to do. Literally. And it almost felt good, I could take things at my own pace for once in a long while.

Well I'm living on the 3rd and top floor of a nice apartment complex now (with communist like rules). I'm focusing on school now and am doing pretty good. I now have more time to fulfill the promises I made and to plan the future.. And perhaps even write some letters that are owed. Thats about it for now, peace.
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Sep. 1st, 2005 @ 02:22 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Richard Cheese - Guerrilla Radio
Boy, my life is going to shit. My dads going to have my balls when I get home. I know I won't have my computer for a while, I might have to move out again too, because he says I'm definately going to Boston soon. My phone is dead, and when I try to turn it on it asks for a security code, which I don't fucking know what it is. In other words, I'm back to just having a god damn house phone. Other people are probably mad at me, I think my manager is. I'm pretty sure my dads going to explode in my face, Mary won't talk to me anymore, and I'm sure that Toori's pretty pissed because I we barely talked at all last night, and we just haven't had any time to talk as of late. Had a wierd dream last night, but I don't really want to talk about it.


Here it goes again, another attempt at getting a damn apartment and a job that pays high enough to barely survive. Best part is I have school too.
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Aug. 29th, 2005 @ 11:34 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: Lonely, kinda
Current Music: Reasons for Waiting - Jethro Tull
So. For some reason, I feel more alone tonight than I have in a long time. Thought I would call Toori, then thought I'd make plans and go out, but Mike is convincing people not to answer their cells or not give me a ride to hang out with them. Yay, I love my "brother." So I guess I'll sit here and listen to music and pretend I still have a social life.

Mmm, feel the angst.
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Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 04:46 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The Nail - COB
So my internets being ghey. It'll only lemme be on for like 15 minutes and then it disconnects. I'm gonna have to get it looked at or something. If I'm not on nearly as much, thats why.
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Aug. 8th, 2005 @ 02:21 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: way pissed off
So everyone knows my bass right? The big mace looking one thats all white? The one thats really rare and worth a lot of money? Its fucking broken. Some fuckhead was messing with it and broke the headstock nearly clean off. I almost cried because hell, thats my baby. I bought it for $300 at a pawn shop and had it priced later on, and it was worth about $5k. and some negligent BASTARD just dropped it. oops! I'm sure pat won't care. Why is pat so mad at us? It was only an ugly white old bass.

I bought it over from Boston, it just fits me, it just plays right, its the only bass I can play right it seems. I've tried out countless other basses and none of them sound right. Only my bass does. The reason no one is coming fourth and telling me who broke it is because my friends don't want to die. Thats how much that bass means to me, and they know it.


It can't be repaired to its former state. The tone will always be fucked up from now on. It'll never look the same or anything. God, I am so motherfucking pissed.
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Aug. 7th, 2005 @ 01:10 am (no subject)
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: scotland the brave!
so. Next show at the darkside, this is my plan. I'll hide backstage, right? before I'll tell the DJ to put on a CD and play it before I come out. The CD will have scotland the brave on it. Then when it goes on, I'm gonna walk out, in a kilt, with a fake beard and one of those wierd little scottish hats, and I'll march out all scottish like and play the show like that. Thats all, bye.
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Aug. 1st, 2005 @ 01:33 pm Sounds of the Underground
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: Sha la la - Thin Lizzie
Oh, ho ho. I thought I've been to fun concerts before. I'm pretty sure this one tops them all off. Its a 14-15 hour metal/hardcore fest with a lot of my favourite bands playing. And a lot of my most hated bands playing. I had a helluvalot of fun with both of them :}. First, the lineup:

Fear Before the March of Flames
Devil Driver
A life once lost
All that remains
Terror
High on Fire
Strapping Young Lad
Throwdown
Every Time I die
Norma Jean
GWAR
Unearth
Poison the Well
Chimaira
Clutch
Opeth
Lamb of God

Now needless to say, there was a lot of both Metal and Hardcore bands. We arrived around 10-10:30 and parked across the street at the christian fellowship parking lot. Hence 13 metalheads jumped out of the van wearing all black and pentagrams, with long greasy hair and cursing and stuff. It was during sunday mass :}. Anyways we got there, not a lot was happening. FBTMOF played, I didn't watch them. Don't like them too much. But I went down for Devil Driver and was glad I did. Halfway through their set the singer looked around and pointed at some kid: "Alright.. Now see this guy? Wave your hands around. Thats right." Then he looked around the crowd again and picked out another person on the other end of the stage. "You, right there. Everyone see this guy? Good. I want a moshpit from that guy to this guy." And so it was. I was hesitant to get in, but then I saw the bassist from one of the local bands right in front of me, so I tapped on his shoulder and then when he turned around slammed him into the pit and followed. It was chaos, 800 people all moshing, not knowing what the HELL was going on. But it had to be the funnest thing I've ever done. After that, I just sat around, waiting in various lines to get my jeans and jacket signed. I got my pants signed by opeth and half of Devil Driver, and the other half signed my jacket. After that, I waited in line to get my signature from Gwar, but only the singer showed up. In full costume and role. After that, I went and got my shit signed by Lamb of God, and I was done. Every time I die was playing, so I found a water bottle and chucked it at the guitarist. Hit him head on, but he didn't stumble or stop playing, I guess he's used to being hated. (ahem, Ozzfest last year). After that I went and terrorized the PETA tent. After that, I got the fuck back to the stage because Gwar was playing! They took forever to set up, but they had by far the best stage presence. They were all in full costume and they had like, an entire mural behind them and way too many props. They started out by having a priest come out with NAZI symbols on him, (it was a puppet like thing) And saying all this religion bullshit. Then, the singer came over and ripped his face off, sending fake blood all over the crowd. He then got further chopped up. Then after that, a George bush puppet came, holding a bomb. He was decapitated and his neck was used to spray more blood in the crowd. All and all, athey killed a lot of shit and I got covered in fake blood, stomach acid and purple stuff. I hopped in the pit and was almost killed, so I stayed away from then on. <<

Gwar kicked my ass, but I still stayed up to watch Unearth and pit, but for Poison the well I went on a water run and found some energy bars. When Chimiara played, I was asleep in the chairs for lazy people to sit at. Clutch was interesting, no one really liked them, but I thought they were talented and all in all pretty good. I watched their entire set until I learned my friend cracked his skull open. We helped him to the hospital and got back in just in time for Opeth. I pushed my way to the front and they started out with my favourite song, Deliverance. I went fucking crazy. THen they played probably one of their softest songs, Damnation. Then a song from their unreleased album, and ended off with Demon of the Fall. God, it was a great set. I found David, and then we stayed for lamb of god, my last pitting experience. I fell asleep on the way home. But my god, so fun. I now have officially lived.
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Jul. 20th, 2005 @ 06:30 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: slightly dead?
Current Music: Comfortably Numb - Floyd
So. On my coming back note, I can't stop fucking up everything good in my life. Go me, destroyer of relationships and possibly lives. I have that magic touch that makes people want to jump off a cliff or shoot themselves in the head. I suppose us breaking up was a good thing, because now she won't have to worry about comitment and unimportant shit like that. But I still fucked up. I feel so hideous right now, like I'm this horrible monster that drives everyone away and will never have someone who truly loves him. I used to have someone like that, but she's dead. I think I killed her, so go me. The irony is splendid. Nothing much other than that. Been playing shows yeah yeah all that bullshit. doesn't mean a thing to me if I don't have someone to share the happiness with. Welp. Bye.

I think tonight I might get drunk. Or possibly do something more. I don't know, I'm really confused and pissed off at myself right now. But I do fancy a good drink to say the least.
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Jun. 7th, 2005 @ 12:43 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: Packing
Current Music: Free Bird - Skynard
Well. I have gotten grounded because I snuck out. I got fired, grounded, and had the computer taken away because I was sick for work. My dad is shutting off the internet service in 4 days, which I still can't use the internet in. And I told my dad to fucking do it, and see if I gave a shit. I've realized I only do one thing online anymore, make myself look like a jackass, a dumbass, and a fool. it might just be what I've become, but my god, i just don't care. Being online hasn't been a lifechanging experience for me. There hasn't been any times when I'll say "Oh god, you remember that one time when..." So I've just decided to let my dad shut it off. Like I said, nothing good is coming of the internet lately, and frankly, from a lot of my online friends, I'm getting this vibe that they just don't want me around any more.

I'm not being a pussy, I'm not running away, and I'm not giving up. I'm just tired of spending my life in front of a god damn screen. Its time for me to live. Besides, I need some extra time in my life now because I found an intruiging lady who I would like to get more aquainted with as well.

Final update on the tour. Yes, it is happening, yes we're still booking dates, and yes, we're playing at the Roxy in Hollywood. We have a bus, we've just torn out all the seats and painted it black, and set it up with couches andother cool-ass shit inside. We're working on the dates.


One more thing: My dad and I got in a fist fight. He took the first swing, but I made the first hit. I still have a black eye and a lot of bruises though. I've decided that I'm moving out. For good this time, I have found a job at a restraunt, can afford rent, and will be staying with two of my best friends in a two bedroom apartment. Who knows, we might have internet at some point. And I might just pop in to say hello. But trust me, it won't be for a while.

So. See everyone later. I might get back on and put up tourdates if anyone gives a damn about them.
My cell is 1-978-729-7288 if anyones interested enough to call. Bye.
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May. 8th, 2005 @ 12:47 am (no subject)
Current Mood: good
Current Music: Oblivion - Aphalion
So. Comedy is an active art form out here, people have favourite comedians, at least one comedy stand up on CD of their favourite comedian, and know pretty much every line from their routines. Its just like people have favourite bands and routines. Its crazy! I'm sorry I haven't updated in so long, but I've been wicked busy. Yes I'm using wicked again. I suck. On friday there was a wedding of sorts, one of my best friends was having a "wedding" (An excuse to party at the park) and it was rather fun. I ate all the food and was the flowergirl. XD Its fun chucking flowers at people. Then I almost caught the bouquet and got in a wrestling match with another dude for it, and everyone was laughing, including me and the dude, and then it broke in half and we beat each other with our ends after we had fought about who's part was bigger. In the end we decided to get married. XD

Annnnd... Thats what I miss about MA. Anything goes, no one gives a shit what you are, what you do, and so on so fourth. Plus, people back here looooove to talk. I love to talk too, when I feel like I can. And around my friends here, I feel like I can talk. Its awesome. We talk about everything, mainly after school, we all organize something big and end up going to the library or park and just chilling out and talking and doing wicked random stuff. Another thing thats big here that I barely see anywhere else: Clove Cigarettes. You know, the black ones. They don't even sell them in CO. But they taste like mints! Not like Menthol cigarettes, its different and awesomely awesome. I don't like menthols. Also I've been shadowing my friend around school, mainly to his psychology class is awesome and the teacher loves me. She says I'm really good with the human psyche and would be getting at least an A in her class if I was attending. She even asked to keep my notes to show to some people. Hm, maybe I found out what I'll look into if the music thing doesn't work out.I like this way of living, its very laid back.. You don't always have to be doing something. Usually people just hang out, they aren't doing ANYTHING and decide to go climb trees and pick flowers and be themselves with their friends. YOu don't need to be going to the mall later or getting coffee or going to a concert.. You just need to be there, and be willing to throw in on the conversation. I've been very happy since I've come back and I'm taking this oppurtunity to reflect on my life back in CO, what I can do to make myself happier there.. Where I belong. I'm missing my bandmates already actually, thats kind of sad. XD But I enjoy being around my old friends Nick, Sasha, Laura and all them. Ryan, Jon and Chris all suck now though. But all and all, I am the happiest I've been all year, it seems nothing but good can come of this trip and nothing can go wrong in my life now.. I see everything from a different window, and am taking up on the Andover way of thinking again: "Eh, what the fuck ever, life is life. Make what you can of it." Not too far from my views already on life but much more simplified. I'll probably update again sometime, I just wanted to inform you lot that the reason I'm not on more is because I'm having too much fun. :}
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May. 3rd, 2005 @ 12:45 am (no subject)
Tommorow I'm not going to school. I need a day off. To think.
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